Trail Blazing

Today, I was talking to a co-worker about how I recently earned my Master's degree and the inevitable question of "So, what is it that you want to do?" came up. After my lengthy discussion of what I want to do, the follow-up question was, "What is your degree in again?" This, too, required quite a bit of explaining as well.

Now, as I sit reflecting back on my conversation with her, I must say that it is not unlike any other conversation I have had about this topic. Rather, this conversation is one that has become representative of how many of these discussions go.... usually, there is a whole lot of talking on my part and a whole lot of listening on the questioner's part. 

Through my continual verbal processing and introspective reflection, I am continually reminded of how truly unique what it is that I want to do with my life, which is what I feel like God is calling me towards.

Now, it must be said, I don't typically make it a habit to be different or to go against the grain just to go against the grain. In fact, sometimes I really do wish that I was like most people. And, I truly mean that in the best way possible. 

Sometimes, I just feel so weird and I wish that I didn't have this innate desire for something more... that my life could be easily defined within the parameters set by society. That I could be merely satisfied to pick a "normal" career and not feel the need to blaze a new trail or make a new way. 

And yet, at the end of the day, I have somewhat become resigned to the fact that I can't change what it is or who I am. Regardless of how much I would like to be a mere simpleton, I am not. The status quo is not enough for me. I am a natural born leader who doesn't care if people follow me or not. I just know that I've got to do what it is that I feel is right.


Please make no mistake. The purpose of this post is NOT to toot my own horn or to make me seem any more important than I am. Rather, this is an affirmation of my faith in God's purpose in my life. I just get the sense that I was created with a purpose. I was made to do something that matters. I'm not just a coincidence, an "oops," or the result of mere biological mechanics. I could choose to ignore those feelings and repress my desire to figure out what I should be doing with my life, but, I know in my heart, I simply cannot.


Life is a beautiful struggle. The day that I stop fighting and striving towards what it is that I am meant to do here on Earth is the day that I die. Life is like a marathon. Whether I am able to run, jog, walk, or crawl across the finish line, I am going to do whatever it takes to finish what I've been set here to do.

I am fighter. 
I am survivor.
I am not a quitter.
And I am going to make my Maker proud.